it has been a very long journey, kj. looking back at those 3 months, it seems so short. things have been a roller coaster ride for you, but i'm sure you have enjoyed all 3 months of it. fifteen weeks is not a short time. many things happened for the past fifteen weeks and i know very well that's how you walk your life.
you took time to foster relationship with strangers,
you took time to be friends with strangers,
you took time to get use to the different environment,
and you had your fair share of life's greatest challenge; your own emotions.
the people you've met so far, rach, magi and so, are the ones you were closest with. they were there to share your lunch, they were there to carry out the assignments, they were there when you marched to the pantry together, they were there to label people dwarf, sin, 70's, snow white, and big head. they were the people you felt most comfortable with.
i know you enjoyed having lunch together in the office. i know you didn't mind at all helping them ta pao... i know you were very generous with most of the things. i know you helped them as much as you could. but things will not be the same anymore. there's no more turning back.
so was the quiet fella at first. but he wasn't quiet for long. a few hours after being there, you guys started to talk about him. how you laughed at his shark fin-like hair, how he joked about his hair, and how convincing his lies and craps are. that guy from malacca was the fun of the team, and i know you enjoyed his company as well as his lies.
magi was the popular girl. everyone knows her. regardless to say, you guys became talkative friends. from the spoonkeeper to the rubber-band keeper to the plastic-bag keeper, she gets the most attention from everyone. though you had some trouble with her, i'm sure you can put that behind now, coz i know you are missing your training environment already.
rachel, oh what can i say about that sweet, outgoing girl. she was the one who opened you up to everyone, she was the one who made you an extrovert. and she was your motivation to work. and she was the person you felt most comfortable with. i know there are things that you are suppressing, i know there are things left untold, and questions left unanswered. chances are, you might not find someone as nice as her again. so you'll need to get used with the emptiness right now. you've been through emotions so intense, and i know it will take awhile for you to get used to her absence, if you get used to at all.
the dinners that you made for them, i know it was your way of opening up to them. the trouble you took to prepare dishes that suits everyone, the effort you put in ensuring everyone has their meal, the heart that you put in to make a successful dinner, all those will be kept close to your heart. food is life's greatest pleasure, and i know you'd want them to have nice, balanced meal instead of food full of MSG and oil.
all of those things, all of them, will never be the same anymore. you're no longer with them. it will be hard to meet up again. it will be the last four months for you to appreciate your friendship with them. hopes and dreams might not come true at the end. but do take pride that you have experienced it, and you've kept hoping, kept your dreams close to your heart, and kept your head clear most of the time.
i know you didnt mean to be rude to your superiors most of the time. but you should always keep your temper in check. you'll surely remember chew as a carefree but strict supervisor, friendly and fun at times. you'll surely remember jeremy for his interest in photography, his gentleman looks, and that certain air of classiness around him. as for lim, you'll remember him for his playfulness and his spontaneous reactions whether at work or during sports. kok will be remembered because you and him have common interests, guitars and the man of steel. vishnu, the fast talking guy with his never ending tasks and assignments (and his need of yun nam hair care), while tham, the quiet, yet playful fella which developed quite a few programmes for your use in squishy squashy swooshy. you will remember lau as your immediate supervisor that throws you tonnes and tonnes of tasks and assignments. as for tze fu, surely you'll remember him for his 'old' looks and his reluctance to describe what a gynaecologist is to lau.
even though those who you are not really close with, kiwi, mike, kityoong, xiantai, kenyi, cy, ann, senghow, theresa, serene, and the rest of them, i know you would still remember them for their cheerfulness in the office. i know given the chance, you would wanna spend more time with them, and get to know them better.
it has come to an end. you've reached the destination that you are reluctant to reach. you have no choice, but to walk on another route, embark on another journey. i know you are sad for the sudden lost of colleagues, team mates and partner, but i know you'll be just fine. you should keep your memories, but move on with your life.
i hope all things go well for everyone. if there is one thing i regret during this training, it would be not being brave enough, and not fully appreciate the time i had. i'll miss those time dearly.
